Thursday, February 24, 2011

Days #143-181:PART II: My Journey into Adulthood, Marriage, and Various Other Sundries.

Has it really been over a month since my last blog post?! Amazing how quickly time flies and even more amazing how quickly life can change. As Machiavelli wrote, "There is nothing more difficult to take in hand, more perilous to conduct, or more uncertain in its success, than to take the lead in the introduction of a new order of things."

My goodness how the order of my life has been swiftly rearranged. Yes, I am indeed a married woman. I keep asking myself, self, "how in the world did that happen?!" Never had I imagined as I embarked on this literary, and perhaps a bit self-effacing venture, that my journey would follow a course that not even I could have dreamed of. First came baby, then came fiance, then sadly came loss of baby, and then joyously came husband. I still giggle and grin when I look down at my finger.

Unlike my parents and siblings, I more or less took the fast track to marriage. Now I partly, and with the utmost love and gratitude, blame my sister for some of was her prediction that when I do get married, it will happen "fast and in the blink of an eye." And boy was she ever right on. Perhaps my sister has a promising career as a psychic or seer :) but in all seriousness, meeting my husband and becoming engaged and then married happened quickly by most people standards. Grant it, we didn't have a lengthy courtship, but what we have experienced and endured together as a couple is more than most couples endure is decades together.

I was never a believer in the warn and cliche line "Oh, I just knew." I frankly thought that was for the birds. It wasn't until I met my husband that I understand what this eye-opening, existential, life-altering experience is all about. Here's the kicker, you really just know. All rational, analytical, carefully planned logic goes out the window. In that tiny spark of life the mind, the heart, and the soul sync in perfect unison and the greatest sense of calm, confidence, and decisiveness takes over. As it was written in Song of Solomon (my most favorite passage from the old testament) "I found the one my heart loves."

I wake each morning excited and invigorated about the future. I dream even bigger dreams now and am content with my discovery that life really does happen just as it should. I also realize that there are things in life that are not meant to be dissected, divided, or analyzed. Sometimes, things just happen and all you have to do is smile and enjoy. So, I am very much enjoying married life, and I hope many of my newly married friends or long married friends are equally enjoying your happy unions. I guess this blog is moving in a direction, just as my life is also moving. It is also is growing, maturing, and have way more fun than ever before! This is my journey into adulthood, and now into marriage, but also in to rediscovery, self-awakening, forgiveness and most importantly, happiness. Just like Louis Jordan belted out in the late 1950's, "Let the good times roll!!"